fucking disgusting

paper started and ended with a BANG literally. one look at the paper before attempting, BANG, jialat, cannot do. " Put your pens down" BANG! fail already.

from 1 to 4, all qns looks familiar yet completely un-doable to me. have i gone stupider? it's as if, someone has juz removed all that i've xin xin ku ku memorised and understood away from my brain. erased and gone! wdf.

wad happened?????? this is by far the worst paper i've ever had in my life. LESS than 20% of the paper completed!!!!!! isn't that a 'confirm fail' paper? i;ve nv nv nv nv in my life completed less than 50% of any exam papers!!!!!! i feel so dumb, stupid. so disappointed.

angry or sad. cry or let out the temper? i dunno. i;m so god-damn helpless now.

if uni is free, i would not hesitate to repeat this sem again. regardless i'll pass onot. i would go to the dean and say, i wan to repeat year 2 sem 1. tho my result might not have any red markings. i hate it when i cldn't do any exam paper. i feel like i've learn nth AT ALL!!! defeats the purpose that i'm here. argh......

how man? how how how? wad da fuck was the lecturers thinking? setting such difficult papers with lots of formulas and theories to memorize and yet expect us to do? we aren't robots. CCB! closed book somemore.

sigh.....2 papers down. nth to be happy abt. both sucks like fuck. now i truly truly hate ntu. now i can understand y ntu ranking has been dropping. students are getting more and more demoralised each academic year.

exactly like how i;m feeling now. helpless, lost, confused and uncertainty of emotions.

everything's gray, gray gray fucking gray. blue sky? where? i don't see it. all i see is gray........a shade of black.