shopping~

formal wear tml~

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so i went town yesterday to get myself a blouse. A darn blouse. Tried on many nice ones but none fit me. Either the shoulder part too small or the waist part too large. Then stepped into zara......and.....found sth which fit me perfectly. BUT $75! For a darn blouse? HELL NO!

Closed my eyes and shut my ears from the evil voice inside my head squeaking.....JUST BUY LA! NICE WAD! BUYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

ala...

From somerset we shopped, till taka, then wisma and tada! Another blouse! Perfect! And ka ching.......mission accomplished.

Next, accesories to complement the blouse. Bebe suggested a loud necklace coz my blouse is plain black, and since my pants are gg to be black too, that would complement well enough.

As such, bebe bought a red one from aldo for me. :) I'm a happy gal~ hurhurhur.

BUT i'm not wearing the blouse tml. It doesn't look good with my pants, makes me look like a waitress.

In the end, i'm not wearing the one which i painstakingly searching around and bought but my roomie's blouse. Grrrr........But ok la.....I'm still gonna be a pretty pretty demonstrator tml~ yay~ hehehe

Haiz, there goes the Half of the money i earned last week.

sad~

I tot the day was fine.
I tot everything would be fine.
I wanna let everything passed fine.
It was just a wishful thinking.

Hurt,
Pain,
Sad,
Disappointed,
Confused,
Regret,
Dismay,
Was wad it felt like.

Keeping them till home,
Hugging with care till warmth,
Pour it out here,
Where only walls around,
Looking back at me,
With a rain in this little room.



Sometimes i wonder, and i envy turtles. Turtles do not flock together always and yet they live long. Sometimes i wonder, if there's truly someone who can really see to my heart. Sometimes, i wonder if it wld be better if the mask is back on again? Would it have been better? Would it have been alright for both? Perhaps, i'm really much different from all. Perhaps, i shldn't have bare myself, waiting to get slapped right on my face. Is this the only way? Masking myself, hiding the true in a dark corner? I shld have done so? Preventing the ever occuring pain. Preventing the hurt, u and me, both. Ultimately I should have never expect much from others.....who am i to judge?To expect others to understand?


Now i begin to wonder, do i really have a best friend? A friend who can see eye to eye with? Someone who would be there to share and understand? Someone who would tok things out when things didn;t turn out? Someone who would listen and forgive? Someone who would know me well enough to not make me feel this way? Someone would just be frank to me as well? Someone who would tell me directly and explain clearly when things were to go wrong? Is there really no such person at all?

All along i've been searching and everytime when i tot i've found, bathed myself with happiness, baring everything in me, the next time i know, the arrow is in my heart again. Every failure makes me wonder more, despising human with a colder heart. Are human animals ultimately? We are beast and most beasts only have their interest at heart. Not pointint fingers are anyone but this is wad i've seen so far. The road i;ve walked has been long and winding. Seen enough, experience enough to make me really wonder. Does the problem lies in me? Or does the prob lies in others?

I guess i would never know till i found that friend.

~ Love brings warmth and washes away any tears. I wish it could wash away the pain in my heart. ~

first day!

have i ever mentioned i've gotten my confirmed tution assignment?
have i ever mentioned that i just had my first session?

oh well....luckily the kid is an obedient one. Skinny, soft and seems hardworking. Hope i'm right about this. Hope i;m judging the cover of the book correctly.

Chinese and maths are alright to me. BUt the problems is science. I realised that i've got a problem teaching science. ooopz! And i must remember to help my student buy his science assessment book. sigh. macam a mother now.

Yesterday went to popular bookstore, wanted to get one suitable one for him. And little did i know till bebe pointed out that those who were there browsing and intending to buy books were the parents. That suddenly made me feel like a parent too. ha! BUT no! i'm a tutor. :P

Actually i've got another assignment. This one is with a non-local kid, she's a filipino. Not sure if they would pang sey me coz i've not gotten any sms from the mother confirming the time and day of commence. hmmm.....

Let's hope they won't. :)

bebe told me yesterday that i've becoming more and more like a singaporean female. Shopping is his concern, he's afraid that i would be spending too much. However i don't think so. Perhaps it's only this period of time coz it's GSS! haha.....many that i've craved to get, i should get at this time coz sale ma...cheap cheap. :) true wad. BUt i've gotten my heels, to go with dresses which i've ordered from yx. Next is a skirt coz mine was stolen and i don't wanna claim it back. Damn er xin! Or i should get a sweater first? Mine was stolen too. Damned that thief, damn her. CUrse her to not get any job application till 2 years' time. Teach her a lesson for stealing clothes which i bought with the however little money i have had. Hmmph!

Basically that's all i need urgently now. Skirt mayb not. Mayb shorts would do. Anything short to go with the hot weather currently would just be fine. :)

the rest would have to wait till the later times. :) ciaoz. i'm gg out soon!