sigh

Christmas is coming. The atmosphere is everywhere.

BUT i'm broke! no $$$$. :(

went to take vaccination for hep A and B and these cost ard $100++ including blood test. no doubt it's good to take the vaccination ASAP coz i love to eat seafood especially clams, BUT i din noe it's this ex. if only i shld have known earlier, perhaps i wld take it next month. boohooo.....bo lui. lui lui lui...mana wu lui?

and bebe's pay hasn't come in yet. so officially both of us are broke! can't do anything. stay at home and tian mimi.

forgetful

wad a lousy person i am.

keep forgetting dates and dates. wad i'm suppose to do on a specified date! especially IHG. since my ic went for hols, i can remember wad day is IH training, that i'm suppose to contact the players for their training times, look up for the IH dates and times. alamak! such simple task yet i screw everything up. oh well..not me exactly.

it shldn't be me fixing up dates and times and place for the trainings. it shldn't be me LOOKING for MORE players. all the more, I SHLDN'T FEEL SO BAD FOR NOT HAVING A FULL TEAM right? it's not my fault anyway, whos the IC?

bebe keep telling me not to worry so much coz it's not my job anywayz. serene said the same. but then i juz feel not right abt this. that i'm suppose to make things right. but i keep screwing things up.

today suppose to have training but then i told sab that training on wed. omg. wed is match already leh. and how come noone sms me abt training except sab. i tot she mixed up the date. but apparently it's me. sigh...

this ih is so screwed up. and i'm so f**** frustrated.

y do i still keep forgetting things. stop being so blur. *sulk

fucking irritated

this IH is making me puke blood again.

wad da fuck manz! 5 main players? and no reserves currently? sure play till die one la.

BUT again, i saw the fixtures. against hall 7 and 2. can win meh? with 5 xiao mao? hA?

only had one training. and that training only see the familiar face. how the fuck would i noe if the rest wld turn ard and run away and leave only mayb 3 confirmed players? like that play for fuck!

tmd. so damn angry. mayb it's not her fault but then she's the ic man. mayb it's bcoz of the scrapping of the HAS system. mayb ppl juz can't be bothered anymore to join. wdf. im beginning to regret being the captain. zi zao ma fan! as if last year i hadn't puke enough blood. this year wanna puke somemore.

disappointed and more disappointment. like my friend said, life is full of disappointments! indeeed, especially when it comes to hall and school. KNN! can't there be a year when i don;t have to puke blood anymore? and smile all the way though the team is a lousy one yet full attendence?

i realise that i only blog when there's sth to complain. hahaha...anyways, other than things which makes me angry, irritated and disgusted, i'm basically living in a lovey dovey life. >.<