crazied

been a bit too hot-tempered, a bit too quick-tempered, a bit too impatient, a bit too anxious this semester. have been offending some of my friends, i felt due to my incompetence to deal with this sudden rush of stress all of a sudden. sigh....i'm slowly turning into another me whom i don't even know at all!!!!

forever running after the lectures, forever rushing through my works and projects, forever not getting enough sleep, forever not eating breakfast. uni life is slowly changing my temper, turning it worse.

not to say i don't even have time for friends, i don't even have time for trainings. been losing way much muscle mass, which is unacceptable. feeling weak and fragile is what i am now. i could no longer move as swift, no longer agile, no longer quick-thinking......no more.....i feel as if i'm turning into a potato soon....or maybe a marshmallow....

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i hope everything wld be better after the recess week......( fat hope ) sigh......

peace?

not sure if the cloud is cleared and the prob solved. But at least i can feel that this time, u apologised and without half-heartedly. at least now, i won't be in a dilemma state which makes me miserably sad and confused, unfocused.

i can feel the blue days are back....but even so, i've never stopped loving u.....

peace?

wad's the prob

sigh..i do not noe wad to do.....

i've been editing, deleting, re-writing this post for over three times already. my mind is in a mess and i do not know wad i shld express here.

i do not want u to feel unhappy...in fact i hate it when u feel angry....whether or not it;s becoz of me. i wld feel that everything's my fault and like how u wld feel, i feel like a thrash, useless, just a black heavy plastic bag. nothing of value, only things which people are sick and dislike of.

haiz...so many things that i wanna bring across to u. but when it comes to the time for me to express, i'm lost in how i shld bring it out in a way that u wld not feel angry.

haiz......wad da heck....i'm unable to write any further.....