Human behaviour never fails to be interesting. It's as tho everyone is made up of several gazillion pieces of puzzles, waiting for u to solve and unravel the mystery involved. Everytime one piece fits into the other, it creates an interesting piece of story. A story on a tiny section of a person's character and way of thinking.
Everyone has a different way of thinking, even tho it might not be noticable, but it indeed exists. Disillutions are often fabricated to the advantage of a person. No matter how persistent and sure u are of the person's wrong-doings, the insistence of the accused would make you doubt your perspective for a moment.
Today you can be friends, but the next day the friend turns to a foe. Selfishness tends to create this scenario. Personal gain, personal achievement are often taken as priority and sacrifices on several values which our ancestors have attempted to pass on. Integrity, selflessness, respect. Times has change, circumstances are different. One can claim as such. But it is undenial that in this current society all these have slowly been eroded away.
Survival becomes an utmost importance to most. "I need to obtain the power to command and stand above you all!" Status and power, are these really so importance after all? Different perspective and way of thinking has resulted in different definitions of importance. Compromising sometimes seems to be at a disadvantaged. Ironically, being selfish at most times, produce a more favourable result.
The past few months of the exciting ups and downs have taught me that all things are grey, not absolutely white or black. However, it only boils down to appropriate or inapropriate. I can no longer blame a person for trying his/her very best and using all means to achieve his/her dream. Neither am i bothered by whether i'm wrongly accused. Ultimately, i'm very sick of trying to improve situations and yet at the end of it realising that i'm being sacrificed.
I can be a compilation of puzzles, but one thing wld never change, basketball will be one of my achievements.
Sometimes i wonder, am i disillutioned too? Everything written above are fragments of my thoughts, messy and incoherent. FUck it! (IN lay man terms, you give me shitz, i throw a pile of shitz on u! Don't expect me to please you when u give me shitz to face. If u want respect, earn it fuckers! Call me bitch, by all means, but i noe i'm not! Ha-ha!)
